Every Goodbye…

I love this – So poignant and moving.

Sometimes…

Sometimes, it’s not that you stop loving someone, but you decide rather to just stop trying to show them how much you care. You get to a point where you realize that no matter what you do, no matter what you say, they will simply never feel the way you d0…

So instead you choose to feel sorrow and emptiness for a short time. You allow yourself to cry the tears of the broken-hearted. But though all the sadness and pain of those moments, you will find that you are all the while making room in your tender heart for the person that will love you the way you know you deserve to be loved.

Love’s Hard Truth…

In truth, none of us ever really get tired of loving. Instead, we just get tired of the waiting, the apologizing, the tears and the drama.

But more than anything else, we get tired of the disappointment. We get tired of always being hurt.

Waiting

And then one day it happend. Just like that. I looked up and I realized I was in love with you. I don’t know when or how it had happened. I can’t quite pin-point the exact moment that I let my heart slip, but in that instant I knew it wasn’t going to end well.There was no happy ending for me here.

I had made the mistake of falling in love with you and there was little I could do but wait in the dark. Wait for the pain, heartache and disappointment to consume me bit by bit. Wait until there was nothing left of me but an empty, hollow shell of a once beautiful and happy girl. Wait until there were simply no more tears left to cry.

What We Miss Most

I think people would be very surprised if they ever  discovered the things we missed most about them – Maybe it’s not their smile, but rather the sound of their heartbeat when you’re both lying in bed reading. Maybe it’s not their charm, but instead the late night conversations about love, reality, philosophy and the absurdity of  “String Theory”. Maybe it’s not the their infinity music collection, but their amazing playlist that you know you would never be able to put together yourself, or their excitement of sharing a newly discovered musician, band or artist.

When I think about the things I miss the most about people I love, or have loved, they always seem so abstract and  ridiculous, but even still – I miss them. Tiny snatches of moments I remember so clearly that I can’t help but smile. Conversations, jokes shared, silly songs, car rides and midnight glasses of red wine… Even the heart break. I wish there was a way to capture these moments in little, precious glass bottles, so we could re-live them over and over again. So we could call on these memories to gain a little “life” perspective, happiness or even just to remind ourselves that we are still alive.

But if we could do that, maybe all those cherished thoughts wouldn’t be so special. Maybe we wouldn’t lie in the dark and try re-live every fleeting second of that treasured memory. Maybe then we simply wouldn’t miss those people quite so much… And maybe that would be a blessing.